Monday, May 22, 2006

The "L" Word

Well, I said it.

That's right. It took me almost a week of false starts, panic attacks, and even some hidden tears of terror but I finally got it out there.

The response was less than perfect.

And yet, in the long run I'd much rather have the sort of honest conversation Friendster Guy and I had as a result than receive a knee jerk "I love you too" with no thought whatsoever. Suffice it to say that I know I am loved and cared for and when Friendster Guy is finally ready to say it on a regular basis he'll really, really mean it. More so than probably anyone I've ever heard it from before. He's a thinker that Friendster Guy. As long as snuggles come along with all the thinking I'm ok with that. And they do so it's all good.

Until such time as he is comfortable saying it I have told him I am going to refrain from saying it myself. I'd rather not have a one sided exchange in that regard. But it's out there. And I didn't die. Or get turned away. So I'm happy. I'll take honesty, even if it hurts, over call and answer responses any day.

2 comments:

Mrs. Harridan said...

Wow - I think you're very brave to put yourself out there. It can be a very scary thing to say that word without knowing what kind of reply you're going to get.

It sounds like you're off to a good start, though! :)

tdygon said...

Wow! I'm kinda scared to say it to my guy for getting the same response. Maybe this will get me to do it. Thanks for the courage! PLus he is moving to Utah in July for work- so I better get prepared.