Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Happy %$#@! Holidays

Life is hard.

I/We are especially reminded of this around the holidays when we are pulled in so many different directions by so many competing priorities - family, friends, loved ones, shopping, deadlines, money (or lack thereof), events, weight gain, work, blogs, end of year finishing of things, or remembering all the things we haven't finished. Sigh...I'm getting stressed just thinking about it.

Every year I try to keep things simple. I've tried to get my siblings to agree to a secret santa instead of having to buy presents for 6-8 people (sibs + significant others). It hasn't worked. So instead I try to buy my presents months in advance. This year, however, things have gotten away from me. I haven't even bought my niece's birthday present for this Saturday.

I have a feeling that I'm about to become stressed. Like it's in a pot that's about to boil over. I've been so good for the last few months. Even when things have been hectic at work I haven't felt that stressed out. That feeling that I'm about to panic has been kept at bay for so long that I'm not quite sure what to do with it now that it's knocking on my door. I've got so many things swirling in my head right now - buying presents, unpacking, changing my address, working on my thesis, making sure I spend time with FG, with my family, and then also making sure I spend time with my other friends (who I actually want to spend time with and who always seem to come last). I tell you what, I can't even imagine if my life also included kids. Although, at least then I'd have a good excuse to ignore people or choose not to drive the three hours each way up and back to Maine for Thanksgiving in one day. "Sorry, gotta [fill in verb here] with the kids!"

I think I need to sit down and write a "to do" list. I always feel better when I can see all I have to do instead of having it swirling around in my head making me worried that I'm forgetting something. It didn't help that when I got my mail yesterday two of the bills were overdue because of my vacation and the fact that they went to my old address first. Thank goodness for on-line bill pay. I could at least avoid the further delay of snail mail.

AND, I mucked up NaBloPoMo by not posting yesterday. Dang it. I know I was pretty much shirking the rules anyway what with vacation and guest bloggers but at least when I was around an internet connection I was posting. Whatever. Life goes on. Even when it's hard.

And it could always be way worse. (How's that for looking on the bright side?)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hope things de-stress for you soon. You could still ignore people and say "I gotta [fill in verb here] for myself." Just a thought.