Monday, January 29, 2007

"As you must know, your thesis is not the only project I am involved in."

I need a vacation. I'm still feeling off. It doesn't help that I got an email from my thesis advisor this morning stating "You should have been at this stage months ago. How committed are you to graduating this spring?"

Fuck.

Pardon my french but that wasn't exactly the best way to start my day.

This from the woman who has been in Argentina without easy access to email for the last month or so.

At least I know that I have made significant progress since I sent her the pieces that she is questioning. I've been working on this stupid thesis every day. While working full time, trying to go to the gym, trying to see Friendster Guy, and trying not to let all my friends and relations wonder why I'm ignoring them. "I used to have a friend named Sassy. Then her thesis took over her life. I'm forgetting what she looks like."

In the long run, this thing is so not worth it. It's not like this particular degree is getting me anywhere. I'm doing it because it happens to be a perk of the institution where I work - a mostly free Masters. It sounded good at the time. If I had to do it over again I wouldn't. That's right. I wouldn't do it. My life is not significantly richer for having done it. The only advantage is that I won't have any regrets in the "I should have done ____ when I had the chance" category. I can instead say, "I did it, I survived [although that's still to be determined], and I will never do anything like that again."

I need a vacation. A long one.

3 comments:

Npapaya said...

what a biatch.

Sassy Pants said...

To be fair (I am the queen of empathy after all), judging from subsequent emails, I believe my thesis advisor is freaking out thinking that I have so little done I'm going to take up all her time and energy and it's scaring the bejeezus out of her.

I can understand that. It makes me feel slightly better knowing that her response is based on her being unsettled too.

It also makes me feel better that I can now drop whole chapters in her lap and say, See! See! I WAS working while you were lounging around in South America. Put that in your pipe and smoke it lady.

Sock Girl said...

Hehe... at this point it's worth done if only to drop the chapters in her lap.

As for the vacation... I hear Argentina is nice... (kidding).

Hope you get some time to relax and rejuvenate soon.